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vivid

For the past few years, I have not had dreams (scratch that..I know that I dream, but I could not remember them). I think that this is due to being 1) exhausted 2) having my sleep interrupted constantly and 3) forgetting to write down my thoughts before and after sleep (something that I have done since childhood).

But lately? Wacky stuff going on in my dream-land. A sampling:

-My dog (Caroline) wearing my clothes and jewelry...having a conversation with Kevin and I. In a restaurant. About nothing in particular.

-Seeing an estranged friend, and having a long talk about our conflicts..and resolving it in a loving manner. When I woke up I still felt her arms around me, and had tears on my cheeks.

-Making a pie, and before anyone ate it I threw it away. Then made another one. I can remember how red the berries were, and I was in a kitchen that wasn't my space, but I was familiar with it.

Then, last night. I was in labor, and delivered a baby girl. I was smitten with her, but had this sense of urgency, like I was late getting somewhere. I left the baby in her bed, and bundled S up in a snow suit...and then got in the car and drove away. I wasn't upset, or sad...but I just felt that I had to get somewhere else, soon. When we got back Kevin had named her Olivia (a name that he detests), and we all had dinner.

I know nothing about analyzing dreams. I don't know if these snippets are a look into my mind and the stress that I have been under lately...but what they all shared was how very vivid they were. The colors in them were magnified, the textures pronounced (the feel of the sweater my former friend was wearing, how soft the baby's hair was, S's pink cheeks and white teeth smiling at me from her car seat, the warm bread in the restaurant)....they have stayed with me because of these things.

Anyone out there want to pick them apart? Or have me committed??

Don't answer that last question..but all insights are welcomed.